Whoa, can’t believe it’s been such a long time since my last post. What can I say? Life’s been crazy hectic…to say the least. It’s been super busy and super stressful and I got caught up in work, work and work. I sort of started a new business and it required all of my attention.
So, I can say I gained a lot- in terms of new knowledge and experience- yet, somewhere along the way I might have lost another piece of myself which is quite frustrating. Sometimes, when I get to think about how much my life’s already changed due to disease, being so busy and not really having a moment to myself can add up to my… bitterness.
Now don’t get me wrong. I’m far from bitter and angry. I’m perfectly aware I should be counting my blessings because I have so much. I have a job, a roof over my head, a fridge full of food, clothes in my closet, people I can talk to,… so yeah, I have a lot. I have safety. As boring as it may sound I bet everything on it.
Still, I wish I had a bit more time. But instead life often feels like I’m on a never ending roller-coaster ride. I just want this super speedy train to stop for a moment or at least slow down so that I can actually enjoy the ride and marvel the wonders that surround me.
Because I swear I have absolutely no idea when was the last time I had time to go for a walk, do the grocery shopping in peace and quiet, read a book without guilt, meet a friend or do anything at all for my soul. Like- writing. Apart from the job (yup, I’m that lucky gal who gets to write for living, yay).
Bottom line- if I know what I miss and if I know that happiness is mostly in my hands, I think it might be time to do something about it. I’m too afraid to make a promise of writing this blog more regularly as I don’t want to jinx it. Not that I’m looking for excuses, but after working for 12+ hours, I have really little energy left to get behind computer and write something…meaningful, lol. But I’ll try. Trying is okay.